Post by EvilRocker on Jan 11, 2004 1:50:18 GMT -5
STUDIO DIARY #3 (April 21 - 27, 2000)
Friday 21st.
I can't believe it's Friday already. I'm totally freaked out by how fast time is unraveling before me. I'm gonna be a hundred years old in the blink of an eye and I won't even know what's happened.
So it's Good Friday again. Just typing the word makes me feel so morose. My mind ticking over a trillion snapshots in 3/4 time:
Standing up at Sunday School wearing an inky-blue velvet dress and clutching a tiny bunch of gold and purple crocuses wrapped in silver foil.
Hunting for hidden eggs in the garden with my sisters, collecting them in wee wicker baskets donated to us by my parents.
An early memory of love and loss. Four years old, staring up in horror at a tortured Jesus nailed to the cross and wondering what precisely he had done to merit such a punishment.
Earnestly singing "Jesus wants me for a sunbeam" amidst the throng of my school choir.
(Damn....I used to be so CUTE. What went wrong?!?!?!?!?)
Oh god...I've totally depressed myself now.
I think I need some chocolate.
x
Saturday 22nd.
The sun is out today and our girlfriend just gave birth to a baby girl in less than 20 minutes?!?!?!?!?!!
Ha ha ha......can you BELIEVE that?!?!?!?!?
The news has cheered me immensely as I was beginning to harbour hatred for the human race of late.
My hotel room faces on to a frat house here in Madison and believe me I doubt I have ever witnessed such pathetic displays of testosterone driven hysteria in my life!
Last night I watched one of the boys dressed in a wifebeater T-shirt and a pair of boxing gloves smash up every piece of furniture in the house before tossing it off the balcony into the garden below, all the while screaming and going mental.
Honestly dude....it's just furniture. Go smoke some weed and chill out. Today we worked on a very strange little jam all afternoon and then trooped out to see NIN play at the Coliseum here in Madison. We popped backstage briefly before the show to say hi to Trent as he knew we were in town and besides.......... it's always good to pay your respects in person don't you think?!?!?!?! I felt a bit of a crass intruder as I stomped into his dressing room all red hair and lipstick but he was quite charming and didn't seem to mind a bit!!
Anyway....the show was fucking awesome. We all felt so inspired and rejuvenated afterwards! And the lights were so divine that I wanted to steal them all to hang on the ceiling of my bedroom.
Sunday 24th.
Day off. I am mute.
Monday 25th.
The AC unit in the studio is broken and it's SWELTERING in the recording room. I feel like I'm going to go off my head. Damnit I'm in such a bad mood but I've no idea why.
To add insult to injury there is another band recording in the upstairs studio and they are really annoying me. I can't even make a cup of tea in the kitchen without one of them passing a comment or trying to engage me in conversation.
Dudes........NOT TODAY ALRIGHT?!?!??!! Just because we are musicians in the same building together does NOT mean we have to talk. LEAVE ME ALONE. I DO NOT WANT TO BE YOUR FRIEND.
The rest of Garbage think I should practice more tolerance and quit being a nasty piece of work. I think maybe they are right.
I'm thinking of splitting early and going to see The Flaming Lips play tonight. I gotta get the hell out of here.
x
PS. Catch phrase of the day: Sometimes it's fun to be a cunt!
Tuesday 26th.
Good day today. We got quite a bit of work done for once and I don't feel so depressed.
Practiced my guitar like mad this afternoon and then joined the boys on the patio to watch the sun go down. It was such a beautiful evening. I guess Spring is finally here! YAHOOOooo. I have a little pot of miniature daffodils on my office desk to celebrate.
Maybe life's not so bad afterall.
Wednesday 27th.
Yet another horrifically early start with my trainer and even more ludicrous positions to endure! Maybe being out of shape and sloth-like wasn't so bad afterall.
Then I made it over to my weekly guitar lesson whilst the boys played golf in the sunshine.
Feeling weird and frustrated today and I'm getting premenstrual, I can tell. (So can everyone else around me.) Don't have any energy to talk or write or sing or scream or ANYTHING. x
Thursday 28th.
RANT OF THE DAY: Amazon .com is the BOMB. I can't believe it. It's just SO together and efficient and speedy and HELPFUL. It excels as a web site service. Maybe if all else fails in my life I can go and get a job with them. I am SO BLUE today. I've been weeping all morning. The blood must surely be coming.
Sometimes I wish so much I was a boy and didn't have to deal with all the hormonal madness. I hate being at the mercy of my body. And sometimes it would be so much easier to have great spatial awareness and be less emotionally hot-wired. Easy-to-please just-go-down-on-me mentality instead of the not-like-that-like-this careful-you're-hurting- me-but-don't-be-too-nice kind of deal.
Great CD's to check out if you haven't already: Secret Name by LOW (So gorgeous it makes me go weak at the knees), The Discovery of the World inside the Moon by APPLES IN STEREO (If you're in the mood for retro energetic pop), Back to Mine by DANNY TENAGLIA (If you're in the mood for Electronica and fun), Journey Inwards by LTJ BUKEM (If you are in the mood for Electronica and/or Jazz).
x
Friday 21st.
I can't believe it's Friday already. I'm totally freaked out by how fast time is unraveling before me. I'm gonna be a hundred years old in the blink of an eye and I won't even know what's happened.
So it's Good Friday again. Just typing the word makes me feel so morose. My mind ticking over a trillion snapshots in 3/4 time:
Standing up at Sunday School wearing an inky-blue velvet dress and clutching a tiny bunch of gold and purple crocuses wrapped in silver foil.
Hunting for hidden eggs in the garden with my sisters, collecting them in wee wicker baskets donated to us by my parents.
An early memory of love and loss. Four years old, staring up in horror at a tortured Jesus nailed to the cross and wondering what precisely he had done to merit such a punishment.
Earnestly singing "Jesus wants me for a sunbeam" amidst the throng of my school choir.
(Damn....I used to be so CUTE. What went wrong?!?!?!?!?)
Oh god...I've totally depressed myself now.
I think I need some chocolate.
x
Saturday 22nd.
The sun is out today and our girlfriend just gave birth to a baby girl in less than 20 minutes?!?!?!?!?!!
Ha ha ha......can you BELIEVE that?!?!?!?!?
The news has cheered me immensely as I was beginning to harbour hatred for the human race of late.
My hotel room faces on to a frat house here in Madison and believe me I doubt I have ever witnessed such pathetic displays of testosterone driven hysteria in my life!
Last night I watched one of the boys dressed in a wifebeater T-shirt and a pair of boxing gloves smash up every piece of furniture in the house before tossing it off the balcony into the garden below, all the while screaming and going mental.
Honestly dude....it's just furniture. Go smoke some weed and chill out. Today we worked on a very strange little jam all afternoon and then trooped out to see NIN play at the Coliseum here in Madison. We popped backstage briefly before the show to say hi to Trent as he knew we were in town and besides.......... it's always good to pay your respects in person don't you think?!?!?!?! I felt a bit of a crass intruder as I stomped into his dressing room all red hair and lipstick but he was quite charming and didn't seem to mind a bit!!
Anyway....the show was fucking awesome. We all felt so inspired and rejuvenated afterwards! And the lights were so divine that I wanted to steal them all to hang on the ceiling of my bedroom.
Sunday 24th.
Day off. I am mute.
Monday 25th.
The AC unit in the studio is broken and it's SWELTERING in the recording room. I feel like I'm going to go off my head. Damnit I'm in such a bad mood but I've no idea why.
To add insult to injury there is another band recording in the upstairs studio and they are really annoying me. I can't even make a cup of tea in the kitchen without one of them passing a comment or trying to engage me in conversation.
Dudes........NOT TODAY ALRIGHT?!?!??!! Just because we are musicians in the same building together does NOT mean we have to talk. LEAVE ME ALONE. I DO NOT WANT TO BE YOUR FRIEND.
The rest of Garbage think I should practice more tolerance and quit being a nasty piece of work. I think maybe they are right.
I'm thinking of splitting early and going to see The Flaming Lips play tonight. I gotta get the hell out of here.
x
PS. Catch phrase of the day: Sometimes it's fun to be a cunt!
Tuesday 26th.
Good day today. We got quite a bit of work done for once and I don't feel so depressed.
Practiced my guitar like mad this afternoon and then joined the boys on the patio to watch the sun go down. It was such a beautiful evening. I guess Spring is finally here! YAHOOOooo. I have a little pot of miniature daffodils on my office desk to celebrate.
Maybe life's not so bad afterall.
Wednesday 27th.
Yet another horrifically early start with my trainer and even more ludicrous positions to endure! Maybe being out of shape and sloth-like wasn't so bad afterall.
Then I made it over to my weekly guitar lesson whilst the boys played golf in the sunshine.
Feeling weird and frustrated today and I'm getting premenstrual, I can tell. (So can everyone else around me.) Don't have any energy to talk or write or sing or scream or ANYTHING. x
Thursday 28th.
RANT OF THE DAY: Amazon .com is the BOMB. I can't believe it. It's just SO together and efficient and speedy and HELPFUL. It excels as a web site service. Maybe if all else fails in my life I can go and get a job with them. I am SO BLUE today. I've been weeping all morning. The blood must surely be coming.
Sometimes I wish so much I was a boy and didn't have to deal with all the hormonal madness. I hate being at the mercy of my body. And sometimes it would be so much easier to have great spatial awareness and be less emotionally hot-wired. Easy-to-please just-go-down-on-me mentality instead of the not-like-that-like-this careful-you're-hurting- me-but-don't-be-too-nice kind of deal.
Great CD's to check out if you haven't already: Secret Name by LOW (So gorgeous it makes me go weak at the knees), The Discovery of the World inside the Moon by APPLES IN STEREO (If you're in the mood for retro energetic pop), Back to Mine by DANNY TENAGLIA (If you're in the mood for Electronica and fun), Journey Inwards by LTJ BUKEM (If you are in the mood for Electronica and/or Jazz).
x